From My Journal..."Explore. Dream. Discover."

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." -- Mark Twain

From my journal dated May 11, 2007...

I wanna have "EDD," the "Explore, Dream, Discover" sickness for the rest of my life.

I wanna explore.
I wanna walk into a music store and pick up 5 new CDs for no reason whatsoever and listen to them.
I wanna view art even if I don't understand it.
I wanna walk to the park and sit under the clouds and smile into the sunshine.

I wanna dream.
I wanna imagine the impossible.
I wanna figure out a new way to do something old.I wanna turn the box inside out and smash it.
I wanna spend the rest of my life, fighting off stagnation, narrow mindedness, complacency.
I wanna stop surrounding myself with stuff, with collections of junk, with all the things I might be and just do it.
I wanna be a better person.

I wanna discover.
I wanna find new paths to this goal, any goal.
I wanna purge myself of all my worldly, materialistic garbage.
I wanna arm myself with everything I need to stay young at heart and mentally sound, or somewhat sane.
I wanna get through my day with a smile, despite the odds and despite the moments of inertia holding me prisioner.
I wanna face the eye of the next storm I sail into and think of that line from Apocalypse Now (1979) where Robert Duvall's character says, "You either surf or you fight."

I wanna explore, dream, discover or die trying.